I recently listened to an amazing podcast on resiliency. Brené Brown is a PhD research professor who has studied vulnerability, courage, worthiness, and shame in human behavior for a decade. One of her main messages is that it is brave to be vulnerable.
If you’ve read my blog for a while, you know that I’m a strong believer in selfies. I know it’s a contentious point. In fact, as I’m writing this, there is a news program playing in the background bashing selfies – as if the act of taking a picture of yourself threatens the morality of our culture. I see the same thing on both sides of media. NPR and Fox News agree: selfies are making us selfish.
And I fully disagree with every fabric of my being.
I get it: it’s a cultural difference among generations. Young people have grown up with access to cameras that even us older millennials/ Gen-Y folks can’t relate to. We see kids casually pointing their phone at their faces at a tourist stop and we think: how selfish.
And why? Because they want a picture of themselves? Why does that make us so angry?
I think it’s about vulnerability. I think pointing that camera at your face is hard for some of us to do. I think it feels selfish. And I think we’re taught to be afraid of being selfish.
Honestly, I don’t have a good answer. I don’t have anything remarkable or eye-opening to add to the discussion. But I know that it took me a long time to be okay with taking a selfie of myself, even with no one around. And I’ll be honest: the only reason I became okay with it is because of some awesome bloggers out there: A Beautiful Mess, Heidi Swapp, and – especially – Becky Higgins.
So this year I’m working on it. I’m working on being okay with myself. I’m working on being okay with my face, with my boring days, and my non-events. I’m working on being okay with boring. And I’m working on creating a documentation of life that is less curated. I’m working on being okay with me.
Earlier this month I hinted at a 365-goal that I was working on. I didn’t announce it right away because I wanted to make sure I would be able to openly commit to it. Now, in the last week of January, I can say that I’m committed to this project. And I’m really excited about it.
This year, I’m challenging myself to take a self portrait, a selfie, every day.
Each month I’ll post pages from this project. It’s all digital, almost all with my iPhone, using the Project Life App, PicTapGo App, and the Collect Photo App. The cards shown below are Project 52 Edition and Love Story Edition in the Project Life App. And the Photo Grid App was used to make the collage pages you see below.
Note: as you can see, there are two pictures missing from the layouts below. I’ll add them in the future and update in the final album that I show at the end of the year. This is just the start.